You Really Make Me Confused

Today I feel very upset, really upset. Why I always think of someone who has obviously I can not have. I tried to forget. because to be honest, I often dream, imagine, until it seemed there was no time for myself. I also have tried to read his eyes and knew what he was feeling, but I can not, I really like so I could not focus his eyes. I can not look at him, autism! I now can only hope that he knows what I feel, and I can find out what he felt. At least it was enough to make me calm. I love you, prayer beads.